Elissa here ~ The prompt for this particular post was to write a poem in the form of a recipe. I have deviated from the form of a recipe, but I’ve focused on the theme of recipes and cooking. If you will, the poem is a recipe detailing all the emotional baggage associated with food and family and cooking and growing up and whatnot (the point being that a recipe doesn’t always involve step-by-step instructions).
A pinch of this, a dash of that.
That is the way of things.
Cooking, much like coming of age,
cannot always be conquered with a family recipe.
What, are you just going to
eat out the rest of your life? mother says.
Are you going to hire a cook?
If only you could make that much money.
As a writer.
Stepfather can cook, but is too much of
“a cook.” Everything too rich, too
complicated.
Sometimes life is already too tart
for dark chocolate and raspberries.
Father cooks, but doesn’t
even keep butter and salt around.
No milk, either.
You ask for a carton, and
a box of cereal, but
by the time you return to his house
the cereal is stale and the milk
is sour.
Our food says so much
about whether or not we’re okay.
The spongy, off-brand mac & cheese
crammed into your elementary-
school thermos, the jelly on your
peanut-butter-&-jelly turning
the wheat-not-white bread to mush.
That alone
could make you cry.
Leftovers three days in a row,
lost all moisture, lost all motivation,
and you take the car keys,
slip out quietly.
The grimy diner down the street
gives you eggs, bacon, hash-browns, all
smothered in gravy, in relief.
When you return home, the house is hushed.
In the dark, you thumb through
the shelf of recipe-books
beneath the wine rack
and next to the napkins.